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A tormented 15-year-old girl who mused on Facebook about committing suicide jumped to her death Thursday from the roof of her grandmother’s Upper West Side building, police said.

Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson’s recent posts portray an emotionally troubled teen who was gripped by loneliness and struggling with depression.

“I'm actually just going to wait for someone to make a petition for me to kill myself because it's inevitable,,, like, we all see it coming,” Jayah wrote on Tuesday.

Two days later, Jayah followed through on her suicidal threats.

The teen walked up to the roof of her grandmother’s Amsterdam Ave. building about 10:40 a.m. and plunged 27 stories, police sources said.

This building on 94th St. and Amsterdam Ave. is where Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson, 15, jumped to her death in an apparent suicide Thursday.

MARCUS SANTOS/NEW YORK DAILY NEWS

This building on 94th St. and Amsterdam Ave. is where Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson, 15, jumped to her death in an apparent suicide Thursday.

“Rest in peace,” a friend wrote on Jayah’s Facebook page Thursday night. “To all the kids that disrespected you they only wanted what you had. Prayers to your family.”

Jayah — who was a student at NEST+m, a lower East Side school for gifted children — arrived at her grandma’s place earlier in the day and headed straight for the roof, sources said.

A surveillance camera captured her sitting there alone for two hours. Jayah then went downstairs and casually chatted with her grandma for 30 minutes before she returned to the roof and jumped.

The teen gave no indication to her grandmother that she was suicidal and did not leave a note, sources said.

On Facebook, Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson talked about suicidal thoughts and criticism about her weight.

FACEBOOK

On Facebook, Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson talked about suicidal thoughts and criticism about her weight.

“She's such a sweet, sweet girl,” said the doorman of the building, David Foster, 56. “I never knew she had any problems.”

But Jayah’s Facebook pages suggested otherwise.

“I used to have the intense desire to be respected, or at least liked,” Jackson wrote on Feb. 11. “It rarely ever worked out. I don't care anymore.”

A day earlier, Jayah lamented about her loneliness ahead of Valentine’s Day.

Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson, pictured, appeared to be an extremely troubled teen who talked about suicide and depression frequently on her Facebook page.

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Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson, pictured, appeared to be an extremely troubled teen who talked about suicide and depression frequently on her Facebook page.

“Valentines day more like valenTIME-TO-CRY-BECAUSE-YOU'RE-A-LONELY-MOTHERF----R day,” she posted on Facebook. “Looking forward to it.”

On Feb. 9, she complained about online bullies.

“Being 5’6 and 115 pounds apparently makes me fat, according to mean people on the internet,” she wrote.

Jayah’s postings on a second Facebook page were even darker. She alluded in a Jan. 26 post to taking medication to deal with her depression.

“The thing is, I don't want to get better,” she wrote. “I'm fearful that these meds will kick in and i'll no longer feel suicidal. I don't want that to change, okay.”

Suicide and loneliness on Valentine's Day were some of the dark topics Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson posted about on Facebook.

FACEBOOK

Suicide and loneliness on Valentine's Day were some of the dark topics Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson posted about on Facebook.

One friend wrote words of encouragement.

“don’t give up on it! keep going!” wrote the friend. “Here if you need me.”

Jayah, in a post two weeks earlier, again confessed a desire to kill herself.

“I want to kill myself so much but that's mad work and what if i dont die right away,” Jayah wrote Jan. 12.

Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson followed through on her suicidal threats Wednesday when she jumped off her grandmother's apartment building on the Upper West Side.

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Jayah Shaileya Ram Jackson followed through on her suicidal threats Wednesday when she jumped off her grandmother's apartment building on the Upper West Side.

And on Jan. 5, she wrote that others were urging her to commit suicide.

“At least 8 people have told me they want me to kill myself in the past 2 days,” she posted. “I just hope that when i actually do it, they don't feel responsible. because they won't be.”

Her Facebook musings weren’t all dark.

Some read like typical teenage chatter — references to clothes she likes and a boy she jokingly “marries” then quickly divorces.

But in one of her last posts, Jayah reflected on her loneliness.

“I don't think you really realize how much you enjoy cuddling and kissing until you don't have that anymore,” she wrote at 1 p.m. Wednesday.

Schools Chancellor Carmen Fariña offered her condolences.

“Losing a child is a parent's worst nightmare, and I cannot imagine the grief that Jayah's family must be going through,” she said.


This is an article from the New York Daily News.
This is Jayah's account: skittyhatena

In the summer of 2011 I was a loser.  I had deviantART, though and that's where I met a good friend of mine, mewdool23.  We became friends on Facebook and that opened me up to a world of people.  Of artists and magnificently funny people, one of them was Jayah Ram Jackson.  We did talk and we had this huge group of people and we'd skype together and makes jokes.  I'll admit that Jayah and I weren't extremely close, but we were more than acquaintances.  So there's no chance in hell I'm going to bull the whole bullshit of "She was like my sister," or "We were best friends."  I can tell you that that pisses me off more than anything: when people pretend they were close to the victim to get sympathy.  That is not I.  All of these people were much younger than I, so after the summer was over, I went to high school and we all grew apart.  We kept in contact through posts, birthday wishes, liking each other's stuff and getting into silly debates about how shitty the world was.  Jayah was always kind to me and I was always kind to her, however I've heard that she had a lot of issues between the friends in our group.  But don't we all?  We fuck up sometimes.  We say the wrong thing.  Jayah was numb, though.  Nothing you could say to her could ever hurt her more than she hurt herself.
I may not have known her as well as anyone else, but she damn well didn't deserve to die. 
What makes it worse was that she waited on that roof for two hours contemplating suicide.  She then went down to speak with her grandmother, I'm assuming she was trying to find a reason to live, and then went up and jumped off.
She was 15.
I found out yesterday and I'm shaken.  The only people to ever die on me were my grandparents.
I never knew anyone who committed suicide. 
And now I do.
And it's a tragedy.
I don't feel responsible, but I feel like maybe, maybe if I saw the posts I could have talked her out of it.
But I don't know, she seemed pretty adamant.
The worst part was that there was a fucking petition to kill herself. 
I am disgusted with society. 
I would never do such a thing to my worst enemy.
It's like one day you wake up and you realize you don't know who's going to be dead tomorrow.
My group of friends were always depressed, Chloe, Zach, Gaby, even me. 
We all cut.
Not as a group thing, we just all were hurting people.
And I don't think I could lose another. 
If you ever have the idea to jump off a 27 story building, talk to me.
Please, God, just talk to me.  
You're too beautiful to lose. 
goddammit

and on that note I'll post some stuff from facebook that people are saying

"Jayah Ram Jackson is somebody that lived. Somebody that lived, a human, just like me, just like you, and just like everybody you know. Jayah lived more than she knew though, because she didn't just live in herself, she lived in everything. The effects of her life could be seen in almost any of us, some of it was bad, but we focused too harshly on the bad to see how she had positively changed us. We all stared at scars as if it could make them go away instead of appreciating what we had been given. Jayah Ram Jackson, Jayru, Skitty, Babe, deserves to have her positive changes in our lives appreciated. She was quirky, funny, vastly intelligent, loving, and extremely beautiful even under all the scars she had been given by herself and those around her. When you think of Jayah think of the love she once gave you, and if you weren't close enough to her to experience that then think of the one person who has given you love above all else in your life, and that's how she was to most of us at one point or another. Jayah, who's name comes from the goddess of love and beauty, should be thought of whenever you see something beautiful, whenever you read something that really makes you smarter, whenever you're having an amazing day, whenever you feel like you're completely alone, whenever you feel unconditional love." ~Zach

""Hey there Chloe,
I'm a bad writer so before I continue this letter, I must apologize for the letters and words I'll surely end up crossing out. And white out is sooo 5th grade. In this package I've included a necklace I made that spells your name and I REALLY hope you like it, deary. It's not absolutely perfect and the letters probably won't face forward when you're wearing it but I tried lol 
also gave you a part of my eraser collection because I think erasers are freaking cool and hopefully you do too. Oh yeah and I drew you a lil something c: 
So yeah uh... I wanted to tell you that even though we kinda grew apart you're pretty much one of the first non-family members I ever truely cared about (woah now that I look at it, that's kind of a weird sentance) but seriously I can say for sure that I love you. Like, I still admire you a lot. Sometimes when sitting around doing nothing I wish that I'd remained super close with you and stuff. (I know I had more to write but I can't think of anything oops) [crossed out things] <-- jesus please ignore that 
-Jayah"

she sent me this letter and im so glad i have it it makes me feel a bit better and i think it's okay for me to share"  ~Chloe


"i want to try and make it happier. i dont know how. but. she was a good friend. great friend. she was always very kind to me. and. i dont know im bad at this. i hope her family is okay, i give them my condolences. we should do something for them. i dont know. she will always be with us in memories and our hearts. i hope shes in heaven, or in a good reincarnation, whatever she believed in i hope she got the happiness of it. i miss her. i cant help thinking maybe if i was a better friend maybe she. im sorry. rest in peace, dear." ~Janey

"the last things she said to me were so terrible and all I could say was some pathetic thing to try and make her feel better" ~Jasmine

"please if any of you are feeling upset or anything pleaSE talk to me or to someone you trust or love or a suicide hotline or a n y t h i n g. the fact that i wasn't even close to jayah at all when this happened and i still flipped out horribly terrifies me for if a friend or close friend ever did anything. please. no. you are all beautiful and amazing and fun and perfect and i love you all so much you're all terrific, fantastic, wonderful, great people and i want you to know i think about you all every single day no matter what i'm doing. you are all always on my mind. okay." ~Sweetie

I think Sweetie right about sums it up
Please
talk to me 
do not jump
do not leave us
you are beautiful

~Stephanie :rose:

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KoinuDied Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I remember this girl, I was in the same group that caused her to kill herself. Luckily, the creator deleted the group after this news story was exposed. I just feel awful especially knowing that I didn't know it was even happening to her.
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iamnotepic123 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014
I remember this girl from Flipnote Hatena.....

Viva la Jayah
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Art-By-Stephanie Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, that was her.
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CMPunk43414 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I remember contemplating death a few years back...my friend talked me out of it thank God....I really hope she's happy where she is. Heaven gained another angel RIP sweetheart, my heart and condolences go out to her family and friends :heart: 
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Art-By-Stephanie Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankfully 
yeah no matter where she is, it's better than this hell of a world :)
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wajdanali Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Student Artist
:(
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Art-By-Stephanie Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yup
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wajdanali Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Student Artist
hmmm
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