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It has been a difficult decision.  I have to take steps to disappear in fear of repercussions.  It's crazy that I have been a part of the deviantART community since I was 11/12.  This account is 6.5 years old.  It's going to be difficult, but I must do this.  
I don't think it will be an entirely intelligent decision to fully disclose my reasoning as well as all the factors in my life right now.
I will give some updates. 
I am in love, and it is amazing.
I have been working on watercolor in some downtime.  Reading books.
Got a 4.0 last semester with an overall GPA of 3.62.  Still a Psych major, but now a philosophy minor.
I'm debating my life decisions daily.  I am studying for the MCAT and I take that in less than two weeks.  If all goes well, I'll be applying to medical school.  If not, well, I have no idea what I'll be doing.  
I am in an abusive household.  My father and I are no contact for three years.  My mom is manipulating, controlling, and disrespectful to my person.  I cannot handle having her in my life.  Through the last few years of my life (specifically the last year) I have realized that my parents were generally abusive and hateful.  I have never been allowed to be my own person down to the way I pluck my eyebrows (or don't).  I have only a year of undergrad, and I'm hoping I can survive without any chaos, but things may take a turn for the worse.  I can't handle being bullied and belittled by my own mother.  Each phone call I have to make I am buckled down with fear and nausea.  It is killing me to have to force myself into these situations.  
I am attempting to get a job, and save as much money as I possibly can in order to get away.  I will be leaving my whole family behind, and that is one of the most difficult decisions I will ever have to make.  I know my parents do not love me.  They never did, and they never will.  
As for art, I don't do it much anymore.  I don't have time.  
I'm telling you this (if anyone even bothers to read this) because I want to thank you all for the memories I've had on here.  This was my outlet.  This was my freedom from the prison at my home.  I wasn't allowed to have friends in real life.  I wasn't allowed to leave the house.  You deserve to know why I am leaving.  You were all very kind to me, and you helped shape me into the human I am.  
I cannot keep this up for very long, but I will be going through my artwork and deleting them as well as my journals over the next week.  I had originally planned on only leaving this up for a day, but I need time to manually sift through all of my posts on here, and I would like to give you all time to contact me if necessary.  If you would like to keep in contact with me, please send me a message, and we can work something out.  I know I didn't do everything right on this website, and if I ever did anything wrong, I am sorry.  I truly appreciate all of you and your support over the years.  
Honestly I overshared so much of my life on here, and I'm glad you all could be a part of it, but it's time for me and my story to go.  Who knows, I may write a book, and you can read about it then.

Thank you

-sjc
  • Listening to: MCAT CARS prep
  • Reading: Good Omens
  • Drinking: water

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:icongraciecouture:
GracieCouture Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
popped on by to say hi! hope you're doin well girly! F2U: Pink Neko Blob Icon 
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EmmasVarietyArts Featured By Owner May 9, 2017
happy bday steph!
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FractalMonster Featured By Owner May 9, 2017

:iconhappybirthdaysignplz: :iconbouquetplz: :iconcakeplz: :iconart-by-stephanie: :iconcakeplz: :iconbouquetplz: :iconhappybirthdaysignplz:

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ALBurning90 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
HEllo! I wanted to come by and say HI
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Namco-NintendoFan-88 Featured By Owner Edited May 10, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Stephanie Cavanaugh, a.k.a. "Art-By-Stephanie," dear traditional/digital randomized artist, literaturist, 'n photographer gal! Hug
Singing Singing Singing Singing Dance! Dance! Boogie! Boogie! Party Airborne

Good luck, beautiful, and I hope you'll have a great birthday today!
Also wishing you keep up the good work on all awesome traditional/digital randomized art, drawings, literature writings, 'n photography updates; I love 'em! ;) (Wink) Heart
Thumbs Up Pringles Have your cake and eat it too Yummy pie!

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Nelson C.,
"N.N.F.88"
1:20 A.M.
Los Angeles, CA ;) (Wink)

Since I wouldn't have been able to do some birthday muro drawings, I got you five extra drawings, so...
SURPRISE;
Believe it or not, five birthday muro drawing copies I made, of the three feet drawings, chibi Haruhi Suzumiya, and Mikuru Asahina wishing you one, so, wishes 'n' luck!
Click on them:
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pre03.deviantart.net/0b78/th/p…
pre14.deviantart.net/5ed8/th/p…
orig07.deviantart.net/00d4/f/2…
fc02.deviantart.net/fs70/z/201…
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Kosperry Featured By Owner May 9, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!
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EmmasVarietyArts Featured By Owner May 9, 2016
happy  bday!
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FractalMonster Featured By Owner May 9, 2016
:wave: :iconbouquetplz: :iconcakeplz: :iconhappybirthdaysignplz: :iconart-by-stephanie: :iconhappybirthdaysignplz: :iconcakeplz: :iconbouquetplz: :wave:
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Aso-Designer Featured By Owner May 9, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday, I mean if you still around..
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StoryTeller288 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey Steph, I'm not sure if your on DA or if things got in your way, but I hope things go well for ya, even if it's just a small comment, I hope it brightens up your day a little ^^ hope to hear from you sometime soon if you want
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